So Close

We leave in 57 hours. That is unreal to me. I read Nick Mendez's note on facebook about his final thoughts on his LST project and it made me realize how close I am to leaving. He is leaving his readers just as I am leaving my family. Yes, those are two entirely different relationships, but nonetheless I see the parallels. We are both at opposite ends of our projects, and yet I share many of the same feelings he feels. I appreciated his thoughts.

Another thing that made leaving become more real for me was that Mom and I went shopping today for the final things I need. It ended up being quite a lot, more than I had thought. But now I am in possession of everything I need to go to Uganda. I haven't packed of course, but I have taken another step towards leaving, and each step closer makes it more and more real to me. Today was the first day I felt that mounting anticipation, like I am about to go on stage and perform. I am anxious, nervous, my stomach is starting to knot; even my normal breathing becomes deep when I think that in less than three days I will be on a plane to a foreign continent.

But above all of these feelings I am excited. I am ready. I know God has prepared our group for this journey more than I know. God has given me the confidence that in him this is going to be amazing. I am ready for my mind to be blown. There is no need for fear, as John says, because perfect love drives out fear. God is love epitomized. He will hold all five of us in his hands as we travel across the sea, and he will never let us fall from his care.